Have you ever lived (or spent much time) in a gay community that's better than Washington's? I get so frustrated sometimes, because I feel like our scene can be so dull, vapid and repetitive -- with a ratio of ten assholes to every halfway decent guy. I keep thinking there must be a Gay Nirvana out there somewhere -- where people aren't backstabbing, and there aren't such strict lines drawn when it comes to race, gender and economics. Do you know of such a place, o wise Lena?
-- Is This as Good as It Gets?
A gay community better than Washington? What do you mean by "better?" Our community is what you make of it, and what you are willing to put into it. When it's lacking, it's because we have not added all of our gifts and talents to it. Plus, the world-at-large is filled with people who are mean-spirited and snobbish -- that isn't something only the gay community suffers from. Your sense of frustration is understandable, but it's something people encounter from time to time regardless of being gay. The key is to accentuate the positive and minimize the negative. I also recommend that you take a close look at what aspects of the gay community you surround yourself with. It could very well be that you're in a rut and are only availing yourself of a fraction of what our wonderful community has to offer.
My boyfriend and I have been together for seven months, and he recently revealed to me that he has a "slightly" kinky side he's been waiting to explore with someone he loves and trusts -- as in me. Fine, I said -- anything to make him happy. So over the past two weeks, I've been called upon (in various combinations and in no particular order) to tie him up, lead him around my apartment on a dog leash, spank him with a belt and some kind of leather crop thingy he bought, and refer to him exclusively as "my boy" when we're in the bedroom. All of this doesn't strike me as "slightly" kinky -- it seems very kinky, and I can't say that it really does much for me.
I mean, if he wants a few slaps on the ass before we do the deed, I can handle that. But Lena, he's had me hitting him so hard with that damn crop that he's in tears and has marks on his butt that last for days! It breaks my heart to hurt him like that, but he says it what he wants. I'm a mess -- I really care for him and want to make this relationship work, but I don't know if I can ever live up to these new expectations. Help!
-- Reluctant Daddy
Go on and beat the hell out of him!
No, no -- just kidding. Role playing, domination, bondage and fetish are all perfectly legitimate forms of consensual sex. However, both partners should benefit from the fantasy. If you're not getting anything out of it, a greater problem has surfaced. Feel free to talk to him about it. If he has you beating his ass and leaving marks, what's a little pillow talk about how something is not turning you on? I've said it before, and I'm sure I'll say it again: Communication, communication, communication! Tell him what works and what doesn't. It'll save your relationship.
Keep in mind that it may not be so much what he's asking you to do, but that he's asked so much of you in a short time. Perhaps you'd be more comfortable taking baby steps toward being the dominant figure he wants. It could also be that he's gone a little hog wild -- if you'll pardon the expression -- in exploring this area since he waited a while to bring it up to you, probably fearing you might reject the suggestion. He may mellow out in his fetishistic pursuits once he's had the chance to explore them fully with you. More importantly, if the two of you explore them together -- perhaps reading books on the subject, and talking about it more -- you should feel less anxiety about the whole thing. Who knows, you might even find it all a little more titillating than you have so far. And isn't there anything in your wild side you'd like to ask him to try sometime? All's fair in love and kink.
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